Friday, July 25, 2008
Life stays forever mundane
Since last week this feeling of upsetness has lingered in me..
Though I tried very hard to disguise this negative emotion of mine..
Everything was so 'not-in-place'
Somehow or rather I felt things have changed.
Things were no longer beautiful, people were no longer close, the togetherness were no longer there...
Suddenly you'd start questioning the rationale of doing certain things?
You questioned your objectives, your principles, your decisions.
You asked yourself : Why did I do this when I know it's not worthwhile ? For whose sake? Who will appreciate? For whose's recognition; acknowledgement?
Not a single answer. Only more questions triggered.
Well, I know changes are part and parcel of individual's growing up.
But I'm really bad with adaptations.
Nothing is more important than my own comfort level.
Might not be the best surrounding or raw materials, as long as I'm comfortable in their presence. Same goes for people.
Unease only brings avoidance.
Everytime things don't turn out right, the first thing that comes to my mind would be ' turn and go'.
But how many times can I turn ?
On my way to depart would I look back?
Would I regret?
Truth is often so cruel.
That's the reason why I chose to stay in a fako world.
- My Prerogative
5:09 AM
