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Monday, July 28, 2008

有些事情我们想了很久都搞不清楚
原来有些答案不是用头脑想而是用眼睛看的
如果那个人真的是你
我一点都不觉得惊讶

- My Prerogative
2:54 AM


Sunday, July 27, 2008

Gosh. I'm so crazy over Viwawa.
Lol.
Wahjong anyone? =)

- My Prerogative
5:27 AM


Friday, July 25, 2008

Life stays forever mundane
Since last week this feeling of upsetness has lingered in me..
Though I tried very hard to disguise this negative emotion of mine..
Everything was so 'not-in-place'
Somehow or rather I felt things have changed.
Things were no longer beautiful, people were no longer close, the togetherness were no longer there...
Suddenly you'd start questioning the rationale of doing certain things?
You questioned your objectives, your principles, your decisions.
You asked yourself : Why did I do this when I know it's not worthwhile ? For whose sake? Who will appreciate? For whose's recognition; acknowledgement?
Not a single answer. Only more questions triggered.
Well, I know changes are part and parcel of individual's growing up.
But I'm really bad with adaptations.
Nothing is more important than my own comfort level.
Might not be the best surrounding or raw materials, as long as I'm comfortable in their presence. Same goes for people.
Unease only brings avoidance.
Everytime things don't turn out right, the first thing that comes to my mind would be ' turn and go'.
But how many times can I turn ?
On my way to depart would I look back?
Would I regret?
Truth is often so cruel.
That's the reason why I chose to stay in a fako world.

- My Prerogative
5:09 AM


Monday, July 21, 2008





我支持实力派歌手 =)





- My Prerogative
8:40 AM


My past week did not have a good kick start
Mummy got hospitalised.
Sudden shortness of breathe, numbness in the arm stretching up to shoulder, angina ..
All the above seemed familiar.
Symptoms of heart disease.
The doctor diagnosed the above to be caused by blockage of blood vessels.
An angiogram was executed to determine how serious the blockage was.
Ironically, my mom's cardiovascular system was perfectly alright.
Though the symptoms were left unexplainable or I should say the doctors concluded it with post menopausal symptoms... I'm really thankful that I saw sunshine after rain.
I really can't imagine the state I would be in should anything happen to my mom.
I'm so spoilt, pampered by her.
Other than my daily living activities, other aspects of my livihood were so well taken care by her. Though we bickered, we had cold wars, we came to times where we can't see eye to eye, but we still love each other.
I'm so glad life's back to normal.
I suppose this is a test by goddness to make me realise nothing should be more important than family ties, afterall, blood is thicker than water.

- My Prerogative
4:47 AM


Sunday, July 20, 2008

I can't help but hate you when I think of your betrayal

- My Prerogative
12:16 AM


Saturday, July 12, 2008

Bloodless War known as Office Politics


I was telling my cousin that back luck has been haunting me since the commencement of July.
I don't know exactly why but somehow unexplainable.
Firstly we were caught gossiping at the stairway by our Manager.
I wouldn't quite believe if anyone tells me she haven't stood there for long cos her face went real black.
I really felt like giving myself 2 tight slaps.
It's like if I've told our gossips content to someone and that person backstab me to my boss I would have no one to blame other than myself for being blind, trusted the wrong person.
But this time, I, myself stood there and poured out everything like nobody's business.
In other words, I stabbed myself!
Argh!
This incident fully ascertained who are the people whom I can and cannot trust.
It best explained the proverb "a friend in need is a friend indeed"
Office politics. I saw it with my own eyes
Like what I mentioned in my old blog, sometimes it's impossible to pull yourself out of the picture.
Your presence already signifies participation
You don't need to hurt others, but to the least you must protect yourself.
Buyii, you won't know how grateful I'm to you
Thanks for rejecting me when I asked if you're interested to work with me.
Come to think of it, I'll hate myself if she has agreed.
Having our friendship sacrificed under blades of office politics will be the last thing I ever want to see.
The bond shall remain pure as it is 8 years ago.


My forever never ending piles of work


Ever since I took over the new portfolio, never a moment of my hands and brain ain't engaged in work
Chit chats, toilet breaks and lunch breaks all seemed extravagance overnight
That day I made a comment like this : " Margin setup is for those people who go home on time"
I admit this statement of mine lacked tact and was insensitive to some people's feeling.
But other than that I don't really see what was wrong.
C'mon let's be truthful to ourselves
My main responsibilities are to ensure that associates get paid on time and clients get billed.
Without right margin setups billing would be incorrect ?
Well, I can always do manual adjustment, it's not like I've never done before.
I'm already so fucking tied up with work and you expect me to perform testing and margin setups ?
This should be done when I first started work and not like after a year or so, after accepting the shits you've thrown to me.
Take away the shits from me lar, I can sit there from 8.30 to 5.30 to do testing and margin setup all day long you know ?
Talked about work priority right ? Obviously you don't quite catch the concept of prioritising work.


Learning to be a lil more considerate to coworkers


First Experience with 'Dao Sa Piah'

Finally I got the first hand feeling of how was it like to be scolded by R.
People said he scolds like nobody's business, he scolds everyone under the sun etc.
I got the experience.
Of course I was pissed cos I'm not any holy saint
But rewinding my thoughts, do I want to be under an account manager who don't check my work ?
Do I want to be under someone who signs blindly on everything and in the end when things go wrong, I'll be the one eventually bearing all the responsibilities and paying the price of the consequences ?
Definately I don't.
I remember W told me : You'll learn under R.
Perhaps I'll have to learn to accept being scolded as part of learning.
Cos some people believe in learning the hard way; acquiring knowledge in the harsh conditions.
What doesn't kills you only makes you stronger.
Well well, I'll hang on there!

Deception Plot

After being caught redhanded, my qing ai de was being called into the room.
Exaggerated to the extent of pulling down the blinds; as if I can read their lips.
And here goes their deception plot ....
I give you 1 more writing essay in addition to your 2; before you even have time to reject I tell you I'll give you an extra pencil.
You were delighted about the new pencil and forgotten that before the pencil is even of any use to you, you must help sharpen it first. The time you'll take to shape your pencil to the state where it would be an aid to you depends on the quality of the pencil that I gave you.
You help me sharpen and shape the pencil and wrote a beautiful opening for the essay.
In the end, I took away your essay and amazing as it is, the pencil can write on its own !
Hmm... very smart move indeed.


The Pure and Innocent

The so-called new assistant for my qing ai de.
I hoped she would really be an assistance instead of hindrance looking at the way she displays herself.
Naive or stupid should I describe her ?
Prolly both.
Things that a newbie shouldn't do she've done all at a go.

1. Complaining - Complaining of tiredness, body aching after entering a small stack of claims
I remembered when I first joined, the first week was hell. They threw manuals to me. The manuals might know me, but I don't know them. They were so foriegn to me. I don't remember complaining the manuals suck!

2. Commanding - Asking your seniors to help you run errands. Fancy asking her master aka. my qing ai de to help her buy coffee? lol. This girl is the most wonderful joker.
Not only that, she even asked me to buy her buy massager from PS Action City.
And also, alot of request when packing food for her. Simi less garlic la, this la, that la..
Please, it was only your first week and you think we're close to the extent where you can boss me around ?
Who gave you the wrong impression that I will entertain your request ?
HA HA HA

3. Not showing respect - Calling your master "Miss Teo", calling me 'eh', etc
I've name to address k. Don't pass sacarstic remarks like : "Oh you know why I ask you where the recycled papers are ? Cos you keep printing and killed alot of trees!"
What's your problem ? You paid for the a4 paper ? If no then shutup.

4. Bad telephone etiquette
Okay. This is not exactly your fault. But soon it will be your fault cos of your refusal to learn.
Like what J said - Is it very difficult to pick up and phone with a little more professional tone saying "Good afternoon, ______"

5. KPO
Wanting to know our secrets. Really treat us like her long lost friends. How long do think I take to establish trust in another person? What makes you think that we'll share gossips with you. Especially looking at the way you spill the beans, with zero risk detection ability ?
I don't want to die in your innocent hands.

Am I being very evil with the above accusations? But I really feel she should do something to change. She's not going to survive with this personality of hers. The society is not about she herself and her innocence. Is it very difficult to understand this ?


Home or Hotel ?

We've been working till midnight these days.
We comprised of me, qing ai de and F
People asked : huh ? why u all work till so late? work till so late for what ? why never go school ?
It's time you people stop haunting me with all these questions.
Ask yourself; Am I going to help tian finish her work ? Am I going to answer R's calls on behalf of tian?
If your answers to the above questions so happen to be NO, then once again shutup!
I'm quite having enough of these askings.
Perhaps like what my qing ai de says : I'm really an impatient person, at least less patient than she is.
In fact I'm an ill-tempered person; just that ironically I can hide my emotions well.


With that I shall end this extremely long entry. I think the number of words in this entry has exceeded the number of words I wrote for my entire Human Resource Management I exam. But anyway, I'm forseeing more entries with length like this cos I don' think I'll have the sufficient time to blog on a daily basis. Well, tommorrow will be a brand new day with new challenges, oh ya, new colleague as well. I'm not exactly looking forward cos I'll be too busy to...
LOL Hmm.. good night folks!



- My Prerogative
10:23 PM


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是我的错 请你原谅我

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我真的爱你 是真爱你

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Can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend

给你幸福到永远

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