Friday, February 29, 2008
I was telling Weijie on msn that I vow to master mahjong!
When they are outa NS we will
mahjong~
In the meantime I'm given 3 months to 'practise make perfect'
will be my ultimate target!
Muahahaha
Dedicated to ________
Dear _________
I think we can sense our ties are strained, in fact severely
From the way we faced each other in embarrassment..
I didn't know how did we came to end up in this state..
This is the last thing I ever want to happen
Knowing that it's quite unlikely we go back to the past
Thanks for your short presence in my life.
*nothing is permanent; no one is irreplaceable
- My Prerogative
9:01 AM
It has been ages since I last met up with Buyii.
You know, meeting up with old friends tops my xing-fu list
Cos you know people are doing well, moving on with lives..
These very important people are my chicken soup for soul!
lol.
A quick summary:
- Kbox Marina is like 道明寺's house; alot of corridors with many many rooms.
- Our room is so hidden inside; so inaccessible till we say to each other ' Pls take the food at one go. I don't want to walk' & 'Do they provide delivery service for the food??'
- She sang 鹰在飞 and I kept irritating her saying I wanna help her sing 'Jing Dong Feng Lei' muahahaha
- I sang Jolin's _________. She scolded me for being 'song' and threaten to blog about it. *tmd
- We both say '亲爱的,那不是爱情' is nice cos it's composed by Jay!
- I hearts '新不了情', think I'm going to like this song till I die! *so sad de
**ilurvesinging
- My Prerogative
8:34 AM
Below is an extract of a msn conversation dated 29 February 2008, 4.08pm
Miss Lim : also want sing anot!!!! hahahahaha
tian : you want? I okie with it de. I need to destress. even you ask me go clubbin I will also say ok!
Miss Lim : siao.. i dunno how to club go there more stress. hahahaha you got stress meh ? exam break still play. I don't see any stress
tian : [ dot dot dot ] *slap forehead *bring out parang *go bang wall
You know this is the reason why I've always liked this bestest friend of mine.
See she is soooooo cute right !?!??!
- My Prerogative
12:13 AM
Thursday, February 28, 2008
War's gonna evade in my cousin's place tonight.
I forsee disasters.
What's worst I forsee myself part of the disaster.
Why am I in the picture actually?
Since when I got myself involve in this thing?
Stay away from me k, I uphold world peace!
lol
- My Prerogative
9:57 PM
I was reading my cousin's blog a moment ago when I saw this article 'Spiritual Reflection'.
The content was about how Jesus loved her
how he led her along the way
how he brought her back from wrong to right
how traits people see as weaknesses were all taken in by Jesus as strengths.
Though I'm a non-christianity believer, but I was touched.
I never believed one could be loved so unconditionally.
I never believed we can entrust ourselves to anyone.
Anyway, the article have touched me deeply in my heart.
From today I shall live with a different perspective!
- My Prerogative
8:45 AM
I finally broke down into tears when Wilis's message came in.
I thought this time I'll definately not cry, cos I sense numbness in my heart.
Even I wished to, my tear glands would all be dead.
Finally,the long-hidden stress factors were released.
For the entire day, I was hostile to people around me.
If you hated me, I'll tell you I hate myself even more.
I feel like dirt, like shit whatever..
I hated myself being central of gossips
I hated my low stress tolerance
I hated myself being drained out
I don't know how much longer I can hang on there.
I'm really tired of telling people how stress I am. Cos no one understands and I guess others are getting sick of me as well.
Perhaps when I tell people how stress I am, I've forgotten to tell them how miserable I felt, how the payroll documents and IR8As gave me recurring nightmares obstructing proper rest which I well deserved.
Sometimes I would think : 'Just gotta perservere a lil more, just a lil'
But how far can I stretch myself?
I think i'll go crazy.
Definately I don't want this to happen.
In order to free myself, I've decided to give myself 96 hours to think through whether I'm cut out to be a Payroll Administrator.
- My Prerogative
8:14 AM
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Today I passed-by HRQ when I was on my way to Funan.
I recalled those days when I was working there.
Though political but there were Auntie, Jenny & Cannie.
Though the wages were not high, but the days were meaningful.
I always get nostalgic about the past.
Cos it's past.
Cos the days are forever lost.
Cos the people are no longer there.
Who knows maybe one day when I move on from my present state I may start missing them as well.
*Why are you'always the first person whom I think of when things don't turn out right ...
- My Prerogative
6:34 AM
If you ask me for an event worth elating in the past 2 weeks I would say today.
Cos my Organisational Behavior paper was a success!
Phew! I was so damn worried cos I barely studied.
I was so emotionally distraughted the past days lah.
Even when I was holding on to my notes, my entire mind was filled with 'that'.
Anyway, I was blessed.
Eventually,I chose to give up Perceptions and Learning out of the 7 questions.
How irony, I should be better in Learning cos I've learnt them when taking Psychology for CDS.
Keke, I know it shouldn't be anything alarming about me giving back all my knowledge to the lecturers.
One more paper to go before my first semester end~
Productivity Management!
I know this is going to be exceptionally tough cos I was absent on the lesson when the trainer gave exam hints.
I wanted to call my classmate but I guess she'll find me a pain lah.
Since there's no hints to aid filter my contents to study, I try to give my heart & soul when doing revision this weekend.
Gambatte!
- My Prerogative
1:31 AM
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
If obession with work is a diseaseI guess I'm already at my verge of death
For the nth time, I'm sian-ed bout' work
Too heavily loaded with it.
I'm fine with you saying it's my poor time management
No one understands anyway~
Well, I used to nag at my workaholic pals.
Now that I've been put into their shoes, I realised tt's not about a matter of choice.
Cos you'll have to do it, sooner or later.
There's no fairy godmother with magical wand to turn pumkins and mices into payroll reports and IR8As.
I hate it.
Can I afford to adopt the bo-chap attitude for everything?
Toilet breaks and lil chit-chats have became so luxurious to me these days.
Dont know what kind of major business am I engaged in also.
Yay, I'm turning a moody, grouchy, grumpy person!
- My Prerogative
6:49 AM
It's not easy to be trusting
It's not easy to confide
There are some things which I really want to say
But I know I can't.
It's so disheartening when the world is so big and you can't find anyone whom you can talk to and understands you well..
- My Prerogative
6:49 AM
Monday, February 25, 2008
This time I think I'll give them my blessing
It's time to grow up, let go the past and move on.
This time I'll move on without you..
- My Prerogative
5:52 AM
Pardon me for being crude, if I'm.
Okays, Here I am..
Really fucked-up with stress
With so much damn things to do/follow up, the fucking 8 hours ain't enough.
And people talk like they fart..
Things are easier said than done..
Come, come overload me with stress k
I couldn't care less.
- My Prerogative
5:29 AM
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Haven been blogging for quite some time
Readers would probably thought I've shut the blog
Well, since I'm already too tired to complain how my life has been occupied by work, how sucky is work, how sucky is people at work etc..
Something elated to share this time:
Tentatively Miss Lim and me will be setting off to Hong Kong in either the 2nd or 3rd quarter of the year!
Woohoo! I'm like so excited =)
Okays, I know it's a lil no-big-deal about Hong Kong lah..
Hmm..actually it was Taiwan, But I dont know how many times the taitai-wanna-be wanna visit Taiwan in a year lor..
YES! I'm talking about you!!! (if u're reading my blog huh..)
Haha, remember the bygon's slogan ?
Yes, we gonna give it a show-hand!
lalalalala
- My Prerogative
3:03 AM
Monday, February 11, 2008
Some quick CNY updates
- CNY Eve - Reunion dinner at NTU alumni club's restaurant. We waited for ages before the food are served. Why do we have to go through this every year huh? Last year when we had reunion dinner at Novotel hotel, the same thing happened.
- CNY Day 1 - 80% house visiting and praying. 20% mahjong lesson. Note: it's a lesson, not session! My cousins dearies were my mentors. I even had the honour to be taught how to play mahjong by a CID officer~ Wow~
- CNY Day 2 - House visiting & deeply immersed in the <Romantic Princess> aka <Gong Zhu Xiao Mei> craze! Super buay tahan my cousins (that family which has always been that thorn in my eye) [my kharkis would know] typical apple polishers who went ' ah ma, ni de fan hen hao chi !' c'mon lah, it's just white rice lah, never eat white rice before meh? Be a lil wiser pls, say 'cai' not 'fan'. duh
- CNY Day 3 - Shopping at bugis, hoping to grab cheap stuffs from post-festive sale. Nah, all the ding-ding-dong-dongs on sale were so CMI.
- CNY Day 4 - House visting
Uncle A : What are you working as now ?
Me : Payroll administrator
Uncle A: So you're doing HR stuffs!
Me: <filled with ????> <pondering whether or not to elaborate> in the end ...
OH YAH YAH! [ deep in me I was like 'Duh, I've nothing got to do with HR, I'm just reporting to the HR manager, fullstop ]
- My Prerogative
3:46 AM
Sunday, February 10, 2008
We know we have zero toleration for each other's existance
We know we can't see eye-to-eye
We know the smiles are fake, we know the so-called care & concerns are part of the game
But we can't do anything
Cos' the party who initiate war will die
Cos' there are some things/people whom we can't afford to lose
We're just playing with time.
Actually I don't quite fancy what I'm fighting over..
But the more I dont fancy being a loser~
That's me.
You're either my friend or foe.
We'll either be very good friends or just nobody
No in-betweens.
- My Prerogative
3:17 AM
